Awake 1x13

Turtles All the Way Down

& Kessel: I’m swamped this morning, Tricia. It’s not gonna happen.
    Captain Harper: I will see that you don’t regret it...
    Kessel: What the hell is the Silver Saddle motel?
    Harper: A place where no one will complain about the noise.

& Freeman: You wanted to catch him.
    Michael: No. I wanted to kill him.

& Michael: When I needed your help... You listened to me. You took a risk. Thanks.
    Harper: We should be thanking you. Without you, we would have missed all this.

& Vega: How am I supposed to do that?
    Michael: Ask Harper to help you.
    Vega: You want me to tell Harper?
    Michael: She’s the only one we can trust now.

& Dr. Evans: This is fantastic!
    Dr. Lee: This is madness.

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& Vega: You’ve seen a penguin before. Don’t look at me. Look at them.

& Michael: I want a time machine.
    Dr. Evans: As much as we... we often wish that life were otherwise, it only moves in one direction. And the good news is, you finally realize that this is life. It’s not about imaginary partners in penguin suits.

& Michael: What if I just had a dream?
    Dr. Evans: I don’t follow.
    Michael: I mean, everything else feels real to me right here and there.
    Dr. Evans: Mm-hmm. Everything obeys all the laws of physics, logic, and...
    Michael: Why can’t I just... have had... A normal dream?

& Dr. Evans: It’s time to come back to living in one world and not run off seeking a third.
    Michael: I’m not seeking anything. I’m just saying, wh-who... Who knows the rules? Who’s to say?

Youth Lagoon — Montana

you wore a hoodless sweatshirt
on your bed that night
with black leggings
I’ve never seen your face so white
your honesty was killing me
the monsters in the room were all dancing
to the music all around.

& Rex: Dad?
    Hannah: Michael? You okay?
    Michael: Yeah... I’m good. I’m perfect.

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__ Case closed. The finale is for a little snotty girl for sure. The question is: was it by design or an outcome of low ratings.

Awake 1x12

Two Birds

& Dr. Lee: Is it possible that you’re not actually remembering this, but inventing it?

& Michael: Bird. What the hell are you doing? He came after me.
    Freeman: But this is his house.

& Hawkins: Everything all right with your mom?
    Freeman: Yeah, you know, you fix one thing and then ten more give you problems.
    Hawkins: I know exactly how you feel.

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& Michael: I need you to decrypt a password-protected file. What do you charge for that?
    Francis: It depends...
    Michael: On what?
    Francis: If the password’s five characters, I can crack it in an hour. Six, it’s gonna take 24. Seven characters... Whew... two weeks.

& Captain Harper: I’ll start by confirming what most of you know already: Just over an hour ago, our former colleague, Detective Isaiah Freeman, was murdered by one of our own... Detective Michael Britten.

& Michael: The reason I was targeted because I received an anonymous tip about heroin being distributed through Westfield distribution center by at least two dirty cops.
    Captain Harper: You’ve got nothing.

& Freeman: Mike... I don’t know how you know what you know... But I damn sure hope you’re right.
    Michael: Me, too.

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Awake 1x11

Say Hello to My Little Friend

& Michael: When I woke up, I realized that I-I hadn’t gone back at all.
    Dr. Lee: And that’s never happened before?
    Michael: No. No, I always switch. Hannah, Rex, Hannah, Rex. It’s-it’s like clockwork.

& Michael: What does it mean? Doctor, it means you need to figure out a way to get me back to my son. Now.

& Dr. Lee: Failing is one of the most common ways in which we transition out of a dream state, and that transition comes from your subconscious.

& Michael: I will not lose my son!
    Dr. Lee: Detective... you lost your son six months ago.

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& Detective Ed Hawkins: You don’t well Detective.
    Michael: What is this? How did you...?
    Hawkins: Well, either I just leap through time and space or ding, ding, ding! You’re hallucinating.

& Michael: Would you just leave me alone for a few minutes?
    Hawkins: How could I leave you alone if I’m you?

& Michael: I killed my son, Captain.

& Michael: I just wanted to tell you that losing a child is... is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. And-and to watch you voluntarily cut yourself off from her... I would give anything... Anything for one more day... One more hour... one more... One more second with my boy. You know? And, uh, and... You can hate her or her decision or the baby or us, but none of it matters. You just hold her tight... And you don’t let her go. Because she... You never know.

& Michael: There was no accident. That’s what I had to understand. They were trying to kill me.
Who? Detective Britten, who was trying to kill you?
    Michael: Another cop.

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Awake 1x10

Slack Water

& Hannah: Before we go anywhere, we got to figure out how we’re going to be involved, right?

& Kessel: You know what the two worst things are for heroin?
    Captain Harper: Let’s assume that I don’t.
    Kessel: Oxygen and humidity. Our product’s been in storage since Britten’s accident.

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& Michael: Milo Owens?
    Milo: Yeah.
    Michael: Just checking.

& Captain Harper: What’s up?
    Michael: Uh... I know this is gonna sound kind of crazy. I’m not leaving.
    Captain Harper: What?!

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Awake 1x9

Game Day

& Dr. Evans: Certainly I’ll be watching. The pageantry*, the struggle, the victory and defeat. A sport is a link to our tribal past.

& Rex: Who said this was about a girl?
    Michael: Nobody lies in bed all day listening to depressing music because they have a stomach cramp. I’m a Detective. I know when people are lying.

& Rex: How do I give her one of those polygraph things?
    Michael: Well... Giving your ex-girlfriend a polygraph is not one of your better ideas.

& Rex: You said you could tell... When someone’s lying. How do you do it?
    Michael: Son...
    Rex: Seriously, how do you know?
    Michael: Well... Liars tend to, uh, stiffen up*. You know, their body language, their arms and feet become, their movements become minimal. They cross their arms or they... Touch their nose or their throat. They’ll avoid eye contact. They generally get defensive. You know, if you’re telling the truth you’re on the offensive.

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& Michael: H-hold on. W-wait a second. Before you go off conducting an interrogation into a breakup, can I ask you... What do you hope to find?

& Michael: What do you do for a job, George?
    George: I’m an investment banker.
    Freeman: No wonder our country’s going in the toilet. Our people of high finance are painting themselves green.

& Michael: I want to ask you a question, and it might be completely... Inappropriate. Are you... by any chance...
    Emma: H-how did you know?

& Hannah: What’s going on?
    Michael: There’s something we need to talk about.

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pageantry — великолепие; шик; пышное зрелище; блеф; блеск
stiffen up — напрячься

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__ What a twist.

Awake 1x8

Nightswimming

& A cop: What the hell is going on, detective Britten?
    Michael: It’s kind of hard to explain.

& Michael: It’s going to be okay... It’s going to be okay.
    Alina: How can you say that? You tell me I can never go back home. Everyone I know. Everything we have. I have to leave it all behind. How can you possibly tell me it’s going to be okay? You can’t even begin to imagine what that feels like...

& Hannah: Look, deciding what to keep and what to give away... it’s hard. We could come up with a reason to keep everything. So, I just figured, if we don’t use it, we should lose it.

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& Michael: What’s your line of work?
    Greg: I... Provide companionship. Upon request. To men.

& Alina: I know it changed him. It changed me. I just don’t think a person can go back again.
    Michael: Maybe not, but maybe you have a chance to start over. And that’s one more chance than most people get.

& Jake: Oregon?.. Who the hell lives in Oregon?

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Awake 1x7

Ricky's Tacos

& Dr. Evans: Dream interpretation relies on accepting that things which seem random aren’t. Your subconscious is assembling a particular set of emotions and memories, and welding them together to create a narrative.

& Vega: What the hell did you send me away for?
    Michael: Don’t ever lose your cool when you’re questioning someone. Make them do that.
    Vega: Michael, he was being an ass.
    Michael: Yeah. You threaten to punch someone in the face, what do they do? They duck. You threaten to punch him in the wallet, they always open up.

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& Dr. Lee: Are you familiar with the word “pentimento”?
    Michael: Pentimento? Does it go in a sandwich?
    Dr. Lee: It refers to when art historians inspect a painting... And discover traces of... earlier work. Evidence that the artist changed his mind in the course of creating it. This is the perfect metaphor for what your mind has done.

& Captain Harper: Carl, would you listen to me for one minute? Call off your dogs. Our problem just walked out of my office. He resigned.

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Awake 1x6

That's Not My Penguin

& Dr. Lee: So what are we looking for when we make a diagnosis of schizophrenia? Steph?
    Steph: Well, many patients develop a routine to help them maintain the illusion of control...
    Michael: Double Americano. Extra shot. Skim milk. Extra hot. Thanks.
    Rex: Black coffee?!
    Steph: Despite this, they outwardly exhibit disorganized or odd behavior. Which can lead to confusion and agitation. They might suffer from coexisting sleep disorders, including insomnia. The majority of cases become unstable without medication.
    Dr. Lee: Good. The issue lies in what happens when a patient refuses treatment. Many will endure confusion, anger and risk harm to themselves and others, all in an effort to cling to things that only they see and understand. That’s what makes these patients so dangerous. The delusions that drive them also convince them to try to hide the depth of their problems. Our challenge is to... try to find a way to help someone who doesn’t want it. The risk lies in... the damage they can do if we fail.

& Freeman: They originally made it for the astronauts. I’m telling you, I sleep like the dead in this thing.
    Michael: I’m not spending half my pension on a mattress.
    Freeman: Half? We’re talking about an astronaut bed, man. I’m pretty sure I spent my whole pension and probably a little of yours.

& Michael: Just eight minutes of your precious time.
    Hannah: Eight minutes? It takes me eight minutes to get these clothes on.
    Michael: Six.
    Hannah: No. You’re going the wrong direction.
    Michael: How about 12 minutes and a police escort? And that is my final offer.

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& Emma: They practice progressive parenting. As long as I tell them the truth, they trust me.
    Rex: They must want to kill me.
    Emma: No. They’d be more mad at you if they found out you were giving me this. A lot of processed sugar.
    Rex: So you’re allowed to sleep over at your boyfriend’s, but you can’t have Cap’n Crunch?
    Emma: Progressive parenting.

& Gabe: You know what my problem is? No matter how hard I try, eventually, I stop seeing things that aren’t there. That’s why I had to do this. I don’t want to imagine seeing Christy any more. I want it to be real.

& Dr. Evans: So you had the opportunity to help this patient see the truth, but you chose instead to perpetuate his denial. Why?
    Michael: How would he be better off, thinking of his sister in the ground somewhere than-than thinking of her free, liberated, waiting for him? Explain to me what exactly is so great about seeing reality for what it is?
    Dr. Evans: You’ve more or less summed up the reason why every major religion has some version of an afterlife.

& Michael: Gabe didn’t need to be forced into some kind of revelation for his story to turn out okay, so why are you so eager to do it to me?
    Dr. Evans: Detective Britten, you are comparing yourself to a schizophrenic whose delusions led him to be institutionalized. I’d strongly prefer if we find a way to help you before you get that far.

& Dr. Lee: I think you’re finally making some real progress. At this point, the best thing is probably for you to just... get some sleep.

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Awake 1x5

Oregon

& Michael: Maybe we should take the freeway.
    Rex: It says the freeway’s worse.
    Michael: How can it be worse than not moving?
    Rex: Maybe you go backwards.

& Agent Elizabeth Santoro: Still, it gets me out of Portland for a while.
    Michael: I hear it’s nice up there...
    Santoro: Who told you that? All it ever does is rain. Imagine London, but full of hippies.

& Michael: She’s just visiting. It’s not a realistic option.
    Dr. Lee: Is that what she’s been saying, or is that what you’ve been hearing? Confirmation bias makes us susceptible* to hearing only things that reinforce our opinion, and the more closely held our opinion, the more selective we seem to be about the things that we pay attention to.

& Dr. Lee: Unfortunately, Detective, the reality is that this is the way most marriages die... Not with epic rounds of screaming matches, not with threats or ultimatums, but with two people who wander slowly away from one another without a word. They completely forget what it really means to be together until one day, they look up and they discover... there’s no way back.

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& Vega: L.A. is perfect.
    Michael: Yeah?
    Vega: Yeah. I went out with an actress the other day who asked me to help her memorize lines. She said the only way that she could get into the part was to strip away everything that wasn’t part of the character, so she gets naked and reads a script to me for an hour and a half. I mean, you cannot find that in Oregon.
    Michael: She read to you?
    Vega: Naked.
    Michael: You and I have different definitions of “perfect.”

& Michael: This thing works because I make it work. And nothing’s gonna change that. I won’t let it.

& Gemini: You see, that’s the thing about guys like you and me. There’s no other way for us to be. You take away what makes us us, and what’s left?.. No, don’t let them do that to you. The world needs a few of us to see it... Sideways. Sweet dreams, Detective Britten... And speaking just for myself, I’d be very disappointed if you woke up.

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susceptible — восприимчивый; чувствительный

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Awake 1x4

Kate Is Enough

& Dr. Lee: Has it occurred to you that part of why you’re finding it difficult to help your son is because you haven’t truly accepted what he’s experiencing.
    Michael: Of course I have.
    Dr. Lee: Do you believe your wife is dead, detective Britten?

& Dr. Lee: Seeing this woman Kate in reality, and then dreaming about her where her life has unraveled, what comes to mind?
    Michael: I don’t know. Things...
    Dr. Lee: Well, things are, obviously, they’re different. You’ve created different versions of everything in order to protect yourself from the discovery that this is reality. The fact that this Kate person shows up in the world in which you see Rex proves that that’s a dream.
    Michael: How?
    Dr. Lee: Would you have dreamt of running into someone you haven’t seen for ten years, and then the very next day she just happens to show up in reality? Isn’t it far more reasonable that you ran into her here in reality first, on the boat, and then your mind carried her over into your dream?

& Dr. Evans: Every time the answers become clear, you try to find ways to cover them up. I think what’s more relevant to the question of which Kate is real, is why you’re seeing her in one world and reflecting her so differently in the other.
    Michael: I don’t know. It’s not like she’s... Well, either of them aren’t particularly central to either case.
    Dr. Evans: Well, is it possible that these diverging Kates have less to do with the cases you’re working on, and more to do with Rex?
    Michael: Rex?
    Dr. Evans: Yeah, think about it.

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& Freeman: So how’s it going with Rex?
    Michael: I don’t know. I can’t get a word out of him. Can’t even get an opening.
    Freeman: Don’t you find that ironic? I mean, here you are, this big-time detective, you can get killers to turn, but you can’t get two words from your own kid?

& Dr. Evans: It’s like everything else. Things are different, but... equally plausible. So, if you find it just as realistic that a tragedy can strengthen someone or destroy them, what I’m wondering is what you think makes it go in one direction or the other.

& Kate-1: That was it. And for a long time, I was so angry at myself and at the world. I didn’t see the point in anything. And it’s not like people didn’t want to help. It’s just that when a thing like that happens, you don’t know how to let them. I skipped work. I didn’t talk to my friends. My mom kept trying to get me back out there, telling me it would make me feel better. But I kept telling her that that was the point. I didn’t want to feel any better. Eventually, she just let me be... After that, I started finding my own ways to deal with the pain.

& Kate-2: She just wouldn’t let me be... I don’t know how my mom did it. I mean, she was just as sad and hurt as I was. Somehow she had the strength to not only stay on her feet, but to get me back on mine. And she must have tried a thousand times to get me back into my life, and I just kept saying no. I guess I’m lucky that she was willing to try a thousand and one.

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Awake 1x3

Guilty

& Michael: I want to take a shower first. Want to shower with me? Save water?
    Hannah: For the sake of the environment.

& Cooper: What’s it got to do with proving I’m innocent?
    Michael: You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.

& Freeman: Still not sure why you can’t tell me who tipped you on Cooper’s place in the desert.
    Michael: Not allowed to give up the source.
    Freeman: Not allowed?
    Michael: It’s complicated.

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& Dr. Lee: You know, at some unconscious level, you might have always suspected that Cooper was innocent. Cooper’s failed appeal coincided with your son’s death, which caused you to create a dream in which you had to prove Cooper’s innocence. Or you would have to relive the loss of your son.

& Dr. Evans: The point is, you felt guilty. And to alleviate that guilt, you created a dream where you freed Cooper.
    Michael: If that’s the case, it didn’t work. I don’t feel any better about what happened to him.
    Dr. Evans: Isn’t that interesting? Even when you go so far as to dream a world where everything turns out all right, you’re still plagued with guilt...

& Dr. Evans: I’d like you to ask yourself something, Detective. Where do you think this inability to forgive yourself comes from?

& Rex: I do think there’s something else after this life. I want you to know I love you. And that’s what I’m going to hold onto... until I see you again.

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Awake 1x2

The Little Guy

& Dr. Evans: Oh, my God, that is interesting. Do you know that the exact access to the unconscious mind that you’re describing has been sought after since the beginning of civilization? The Greeks used to sleep in temple chambers, hoping to receive insight from their dreams. Even philosophers and scientists have recorded incredible breakthroughs delivered to them while asleep.
    Michael: Guess I should have been a scientist. All I do is end up working twice as many homicides.

& Rex: I’m just saying, we don’t have to force ourselves to do this.
    Michael: What, eat?
    Rex: At the table. Together every night.
    Michael: You used to eat with your mother, right? When I wasn’t here?
    Rex: Yeah, usually.
    Michael: What did she have to do to convince you to sit down with her?
    Rex: I don’t know. I guess she cooked actual food.

& Dr. Lee: Let me be clear, Detective. Your condition is the result of a deeply fractured psyche. It is a problem. It is not a tool.
    Michael: Well, you can call it whatever you like, Doctor. I seem to be doing all right with it.

& Freeman: Mind telling me what you saw that I didn’t?
    Michael: I don’t know, s... something felt off.
    Freeman: And you asking him about his height, was that just part of what felt off to you?
    Michael: Intuition.
    Freeman: Okay. So where does that leave us?
    Michael: Well, he said they had death threats. What do you say we pull all their computers and see what we come up with?
    Freeman: And what’s your intuition telling you about going down that road?
    Michael: If I hear from it, you will be the first person to know.

& Michael: How tall are you, Sam?
    Sam: Uh, five, five. Why?
    Freeman: ... What’s going on with you? When did this case become about how tall everybody is?
    Michael: It’s kinda hard to explain.

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& Freeman: So you’re waiting for evidence to point at something you’ve already decided instead of deciding anything based on the evidence? This is not how you work a case, Mike.

& Vega: They’re waiting on us.
    Michael: Roll it to DaSilva. We’re on one.
    Vega: We’re not on anything. We’re looking at pictures of short people. This is insane.

& Captain Harper: Hey, why are you pulling all these mug shots of short people anyway?
    Michael: ’Cause the witness saw a little guy.
    Harper: The homeless guy who hears voices?
    Michael: I mean the witness.

& Rex: Going to the beach with Cole. Be back later.
    Michael: Hey, Rex?
    Rex: Yeah?
    Michael: Wear a helmet.
    Rex: O-Okay.

& Harper: I have it under control.
    Kessel: That’s what you said before.
    Harper: You should have listened. Instead of taking out his whole family. It’s the most insane...
    Kessel: We can debate the details all you want, but let’s remember, we were protecting you as much as anyone.

& Harper: Hey. The guy that you used for the accident... was he short?
    Kessel: ... I suppose so. Why? Did Britten say something?
    Harper: No, I was just wondering.

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Awake 1x1

Pilot

& Dr. Judith Evans: What’s the purpose of the rubber band?
    Michael Britten: It just helps me keep things straight. Green is Rex’s favorite color. I-I wear a red one when I’m with Hannah.
    Dr. Evans: You mean, in your dreams.
    Michael: Yeah.

& Michael: Home invasion that turned messy.
    Detective Isaiah ’Bird’ Freeman: This is why I’ve avoided success at all costs. I mean, you work your whole life to get some nice stuff just so somebody can come along and kill you for it.

& Michael: You smell that?
    Freeman: Come on, you know I’ve had a cold since the Clinton Administration.

& Dr. Evans: Your mind... it’s simply created an entire reality where you haven’t actually lost your wife at all.
    Dr. John Lee: I don’t think I’ve ever seen a coping mechanism quite like it. An elaborate and ongoing dream in which you haven’t lost your son, relieving you of the obligation of dealing with his death.
    Michael: Maybe.
    Dr. Lee: I’m sorry?
    Michael: Whether I’m with my wife or with my son... it all feels completely real to me.
    Dr. Evans: You mean you’re not sure which is a dream? Meaning you can’t tell whether you’re awake or asleep at this very moment? Incredible.
    Michael: Of course I’m awake. I’m awake with my wife, and I close my eyes, I open them, and I’m awake with my son.
    Dr. Evans: Well, I can assure you, Detective Britten, this is not a dream. ... What?
    Michael: That’s exactly what the other shrink said.

& Dr. Lee: Have you told your wife about what you’re experiencing?
    Michael: At first, I told her everything. ... I don’t know, I think maybe I thought I could be a bridge, or something. That even if they couldn’t see each other, maybe if I told her about him, it would be like we were all still together. You know, but to her, he’s not still alive, and, uh... hearing about it, talking about it wasn’t comforting. It was torture.

& Dr. Lee: I’d say it’s entirely reasonable. It’s even expected that these sorts of details would begin to cross over. The things you’re wrestling with in real life are likely to manifest themselves in your dream.

& Dr. Lee: Detective Britten, as I said, there’s no therapeutic value in allowing you to pretend that your realities are interchangeable. There’s no kidnapped child. There’s no car in a parking lot. And sadly, but crucially, there’s no world in which your son survived the accident.
    Michael: Yeah, well, with all due respect, Doctor, I don’t know that that’s true.

& Michael: So you’re saying as soon as I decide which one is dead, then they’ll stop showing up in my dreams?
    Dr. Lee: I believe that’s very likely.

& Hannah Britten: I think we should get pregnant.

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& Dr. Evans: Here. Turn to any page. Just pick one. And now, pick a spot about halfway down and start reading. Out loud.
    Michael: “The House of Representatives shall be composed of members chosen every second year by the people of the several states, and the electors in each state shall have the qualifications requisite...” What’s going on? What am I... What am I doing here?
    Dr. Evans: Have you memorized the entire Constitution?
    Michael: No.
    Dr. Evans: Then, if this is a dream, and your son has really died, instead of your wife, and you’re just making all of this up, explain to me how you could turn to a random page and start quoting it back, word for word.
    Michael: I can’t. I don’t know.
    Dr. Evans: Tell Dr. Lee that Dr. Evans says that it’s not as simple as he made it sound.

& Detective Efrem Vega: Well, then... Why are we here?
    Michael: I had a dream about it. Or I’m having a dream.
    Vega: What?
    Michael: Nothing.

& Michael: Did the guy have red hair?
    Freeman: Red hair? Why?
    Michael: No reason.

& Freeman: You want to tell me how you knew he had red hair?
    Michael: A hunch.
    Freeman: Been a cop for 20 years. I only seen hunches on TV.

& Michael: If you’re telling me that the price of seeing them, feeling them... of having them in my life, is my sanity? It’s a price I will happily pay. Now, I’ll come and see you, and talk to you As long as they make me. But trust me, when it comes to letting one of them go... I have no desire to ever make progress.

& Hannah: You going to see him tonight?
    Michael: Yeah.
    Hannah: Tell him I love him.


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